My dad loved the Dilbert comic strip so I put it up for him. Today would be his 56th birthday. How fortunate for him to be in a place where you don't age, don't get tired and don't have any worldly concerns at all. I do believe that he is aware of what is going on in my life and in the lives of those he loves. Sometimes I feel him near and it makes me want to be a better person. Sometimes I wonder what he told my kids about me before they came to earth. I can imagine him explaining that although I am a little crazy and very impatient, I do love them and want what's best for them. I wonder if Landon can see him or Scott's dad sometimes when he is staring off into space and smiling.
My dad has been gone for almost ten years now. Not a day goes by where I don't think about him and miss him. I miss the lost opportunities with him, especially now that I have kids. I know he would have been the best grandpa. He loved babies and little kids. I am looking forward to a big family reunion where we can catch up and just be together. I love you, Dad!

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Anonymous said…
Hey Becky!
I know what you mean about "missing the lost opportunities" when someone you love is gone. I definately feel that way about my little brother. I really "miss" having the chance of having a sibling who is close in age to me and all the fun experiences that would bring. Happy Birthday to your father. I hope you are doing well. Love you!
January 9, 2009 at 6:09 AM
patrice stanford said…
I know how you feel. Every time I find a penny on the ground I think it was sent by my dad!!! Kinda corny, but it makes me think of him every day also.

Our new address is 1437 Victors
Santa Clara, Utah 84765

I only have Scotts email address and he NEVER answers me...so, send me yours and we can keep in touch.

I love you

Patsy
January 13, 2009 at 2:07 AM
Nan said…
I love this post about your Dad. I am sure he is there watching over you.

Your little babe is so cute and what a good babe to be sleeping so long already. Sleep is what keeps us sane!
January 13, 2009 at 12:06 PM
Janene said…
I believe that heaven is closer than we take the time to think about. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! Love you, friend!
January 13, 2009 at 8:33 PM
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