On March 27th we marked the 10 year mark of losing my dad. I never forget the date. Every time the clock says 3:27 I think of my dad. Lately, though, I only know what day of the week it is (I still can't believe it's April) and I kept forgetting that Friday was the 27th. I wasn't as sad as I thought I would be. Life moves on because it has to. This is the Lord's plan and so I trust it. I miss my dad every day, especially as I think about how different my life is now. I have a wonderful husband and three kids that don't know my dad. When I see my friend's kids with their grandpa I get a little jealous because my kids don't have that. However, they have two devoted grandmas and 5 great-grandparents who adore them. I look forward to having time with my dad in the next life to get reacquainted and to share our life stories. There is a lot that I don't know about my dad and vice-versa. I know the Lord has more than made up for the fact that my dad passed away. I am surrounded by friends and family who love me. I would be a brat to not appreciate that and to know from what Source it all comes. I miss my dad, but feel him near. I'm so thankful for the gospel and the eternal perspective it gives me.

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